Today's Recovery

15 days sober:

This morning I reached another milestone; I followed advice from my Sponsor and arranged to have an accountability partner.  I called another person this morning with whom I had previously agreed to call and then did the following:

1. Committed to stay sober for the next 24 hours
2. Surrendered my right to act out today
3. Arranged a time tomorrow to call

It is amazing how much this has helped me today.  I am accountable to someone! When I call him tomorrow morning I am going to have to report on my commitment and he's going to report on his.  I feel a great burden lifted off my shoulder.  Any experiences with accountability partners out there?

Another thing that has been on my mind...my room-mate.  I have lived with him for the past 6 months, known him for about 2 years now, and wow...I am fed up and shouldn't be! I just can't get over the fact that he whistles all the time, hums incessantly, and if I am ever studying for school in my apartment he is singing at the top of his lungs to songs that I can't hear because he has his earbuds in. 

Yeah...it's a little annoying and yet, I can't get upset with him.  He has come from a different background and family than me and he has his right to do what he wants.  I do feel like he is inconsiderate, but I shouldn't get upset with him to the point of never wanting to talk with him again.  Last night I was very tired and he asked me if it was okay if he wrote in his journal in our room with the light on while I was trying to sleep.  I am glad he asked me...it really shows that he does think about others' well-being sometimes.  I am sad that I wasn't more gracious in my reply to him.  I said, "Is there any way you could write out in the main room?  I'm exhausted and need to sleep."  Any ideas on how I could have handled that better?

Now, I surrender any resentment I felt this morning or last night, as well as any guilt or shame that I felt from my actions.  I commit to being better and more considerate in MY actions because those are the only ones that are even barely under my control.  As I turn my life over to God I need to first have a base life of charity so that he can build a mansion of love and righteousness.

This is my daily check in and I pray for another 24 hours!

-Grateful and Hopeful