37 days sober:
This may sound cheesy, but I am lost without my girlfriend...I don't know what to do all day. I just miss her. We were together all the time! Except for at night and that was only from about 12 (midnight) until 7:30am! Yeah, it's pathetic...so needless to say I have been searching out things to do all day so that I don't act out or anything. I had a very close call yesterday, but luckily I was able to focus on God and not act out!
I'm not quite sure how I am going to do a whole year and a half! I am going to have to find something to do! I can't just sit around or I'm going to go crazy! I keep finding myself checking my phone looking for a text message from my girlfriend, getting on Facebook to check and see if she answered back to my message on there, checking my email to see if she has emailed me...checking everything and anything looking for any form of communication from her! Yeah...I'm going crazy!
Well, that is what I am struggling with today! Being lonely! Yes..H.A.L.T. I'm not keeping it...but it's hard to fill the void that is in my heart and life right now. What makes it worse is I can't go work out or go for a run like I want to because of the surgery that I had on my ankle back in February! It's not good...I want to get out and run so badly right now!
Well, this is my daily check-in, and this is my hope for another 24 hours!
-Grateful and Hopeful
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