Thursday, April 4, 2013

My Listening Experience

16 days sober:

Today I have 3 things to write about: a note from my girlfriend that made my day, the sound of birds early in the morning, and the sound of freedom.  This is just some of the thoughts that I had as I went throughout the day.  I learned the importance of pausing and recognizing God's hand in my life and I hope I never forget it.

I'm gonna start off with the sound of birds since this was the earliest one that I realized.  I had to be at school early this morning...7 am.  Yeah, it's a good thing I was there that early because I realized I hadn't finished an assignment that was due at 8! That's another story.  I am a gimp right now, I had ankle surgery and am on one of those cool knee scooters that people have now. That also is another story.  Today, I want to focus on what I heard as I was zooming across the deserted school campus in the cool, crisp morning.  I heard a bird singing in a tree right next to the path that I was on so I stopped for a couple moments to just relax and listen.  It was so soothing! I don't normally do this, but this morning I really recognized the importance of stopping and relaxing during the day.

The next thing I noticed this morning was while I was checking in on the phone with my accountability partner.  Each morning on campus there is a detail from the ROTC that raises the flag.  The American National anthem is played on all the campus speakers so that you can hear it anywhere.  As I listened subconsciously to the music I reflected on the freedom that I have in this country.  Even with all the problems that seem to be so large, the United States of America is a wonderful country and I am proud to be a citizen!  I have been very blessed by God to be in this country my whole life!

A note from my girlfriend today really put my last couple months into perspective.  She expressed her love and then, with an outsider's view, she mentioned a couple of the things that I have improved on while in recovery.  She mentioned how much peace and strength it gives her and I was very humbled.  I have been so focused on the defects in my life that I wasn't giving myself credit for the good things.  Having her in my life has been such a strength and a blessing...I love her for it and can't wait until we are married for eternity in an LDS temple through the priesthood of God!

This is my daily check in and I pray for another 24 hours!

-Grateful and Hopeful

Here's a great video that can give one hope:
http://overcomingpornography.org/individuals/recovery-stories/video/meet-troy?lang=eng

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