Time of Recovery

34 days sober:

Today I am grateful for time.  Time is such a precious thing if you really think about it.  What else can we never get back if we waste it?

As I read in the Book of Mormon today (if you haven't read it, you totally should!) there was a prophet talking about why we are here on the earth.  He said, "For behold, this life is the time for men to prepare to meet God;  yea, behold the day of this life is the day for men to perform their labors." (Alma 34:32)  If this life is the time for preparing to meet God, then what I have done with my life?  What have I done with my time?  Have I used it in an honorable way?  I haven't been perfect, but I also haven't been the worst person ever...however, I still have need to repent (a word that denotes a change of heart or of mind) and come closer to God.

The urge to connect and to know God is one of the greatest urges and desires that I have.  I can't wait until I see my Lord and Savior and recognize him.  This is why I want to be the best person I can be.

Today I am working on being content with my situation.  Usually if I feel like anything is out of place then I get worried, anxious, irritable, mad, angry, resentful, hungry, lonely, tired...all of the warning signs and attitudes that warn of a possible acting out episode.  I can't afford that! So, I am going to be content today...content with where I am in life, how I act, who I am with, how I feel towards others, etc.  I am not going to stop progressing, no...but I am going to acknowledge the things I cannot change and accept it.

Serenity Prayer (from SA and AA)
"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference."

Time is something that has been given to me...and I need to use it.  I cannot let it be the driving force in my life, I need to manage and control my portion of time.

This is my daily check in, and this is my hope for another 24 hours.

-Grateful and Hopeful